thoughts

Haven't posted blog for a long time... At this time, most people would have gone back to their home countries & some still here, waiting for their results to come out.... others started touring other states and going OCF annual convention...
Which is all great. Everyone has their own little plans, exciting little plans.. only to be enjoyed after enduring many late nights stay ups studying for exams.. hehe

What is my purpose on earth? HOw am I suppose to act? How am I supposed to talk like? Walk like? Eat like? Do i follow magazines? Do i follow models who are always stick thin? Do i follow anyone who comes into my life? Do i follow the attitudes presented by the media? Do i try to puke when I feel full? Should I try cutting my wrist when I feel depressed? Do I talk to people when I feel down? Should I tell people whom i'm close to how i feel? Should I tell poeple their faults? Should I do this? Should I do that?

NO. I shouldn't. I shouldn't have to feel pressured into behaving in a such way that i think it is pleasing others. Yes, of course occasionally i get sidetracked, like everyone, but a few tugs back onto the road wouldn't hurt. All I have to do is be myself. I know what I am doing is not crude, not hurting anyone intentionally & not wrong. I'm sure there's always someone that I can't please.

So if people intentionally led me to the wrong impression, it shouldn't be my fault right? Mabbe i was wrong to jump to the conclusion after I've received the information, but based on the data, is it wrong of me to base my information on the data given to me? Sigh.. anyways... there's always this kind of problems out in the workforce and even at home. So practice makes perfect. Must learn conflict management. Haha... actually they have the summer course called Conflict Management in AU. Hahahaha