humans are damn complex huh

Do we all agree that we humans are just a very complicated & complex race? No matter what, we use psychology (or rather manipulation) to live by everyday. No wonder the world has become an even harder place to survive; Survival of the fittest. Natural resources are running out, cos we are greedy & keep pumping and using 'em till they plummet in numbers, trees chopped down for our own usage, enough ecological footprints to wipe out the earth in a matter of years. If everyone live the same life that each of us are living, we will need 6 earths to accommodate eVERYoNE on this planet.

I don't know if I'm just down or think too much or what. I reckon I'm blur, distanced and in a world of my own for the past 2 weeks. So much so, I finally got a wake up call on Wed after work, where I was heading home and I nearly had a car accident. If it would have happened it wold have been my fault ~ as I didn't stop at a giveway sign. My fault. I thought it was red light for the coming traffic; this is true for a couple of secs b4 i reach the give way junction but not true when i reach the give way junction ~ but I didn't stop. Just very 'fan' and i'm just not paying "attention" on the road. Yea so I nearly missed being hit by jz a few metres ~ lucky me. So that day I was very unsettled. Even at badminton, all of my matches, I've lost. Except for the last game for the night. I was just so down, depressed and unsettled.

I've bounced back on Thursday as I cannot afford to let small matters (some insults) get to me. As a good friend reminded me that not only am i putting myself at danger, but others at danger too (on the road). Hence, I've really paid attention when i'm driving and dropped the whole thing behind me and move on. I cannot let it affect my work and life. It's hindering my work & life.

I think for the time being it's not a suitable time to be "friends" ~ just not ready for it. After the hurtful exchange of words, I'm not ready to talk ~

I also found out that how come I didn't learn about some of the things which I should have few months back. You really disappoint me. Alot. At heart. Words can't even describe how you feel, let alone actions. I wonder how many things you have kept from me ~

I've always liked the colour baby pink. I will forever love baby pink ~ Pink has never failed to catch my attention and melt my heart. May baby pink capture my heart forever ~ My only wish is like baby pink, where I can capture's his heart forever & vice versa. Pink & Blue. Forever.