fantasy

For the first time today, I actually picked up a Bride magazine in Coles.... i was browsing at magazine section and browsing a few mags and gossips. Then I saw Bride (a mag for brides-to-be and tips for weddings etc). While I was looking at it, i realised, shit, why am i looking at this? The contents actually looked quite good; liked the dresses and shoes in it AND i was contemplated at buying the mag lol, solely because I saw there was a wedding planner inside!! Like a few pages of planner, that helps you plan everything from 12 months in advance to the day itself to areas such as groom accessories, entourage on the day, etc. I thought it might come in handy having that for one day (hopefully) but on second thoughts, buying the mag would only rot in my cupboard and not even glanced at after this. And it's not cheap either; $14!! For a bridal magazine! Bleh ~ eventually i put it back on the shelf after checking out all the nice stuff in it.

Prolly cos nowadays there's so many weddings that it made me think; when's mine? Am I going to have one. I even had dreams recently of handling a baby in some weird situation. But I think it's just mother nature kicking in.... We're born to be wife and mothers one day and we are the more feminine species hence naturally, this is our natural forte. Despite how hard it is to do parenting and some mothers just gets into depression about some slight mistakes, it's part of parenting. Don't know what's the hardest job in the world; doctors who saves delicate lives or rather, our lives is at the mercy of their hands when we need doctors the most, parenting, undercover cop or ........... I'm sure there's gotta be jobs which are harder than most other jobs.