sitting here thinking

I'm sitting here whilst marking assignments and mind is wandering off while listening to Jay CHou songs, why people act the way they do. Is it because they want face? They want to protect their ego? They want to protect themself from embarrassment?

Thousands and one thing are running through my mind while I look back at old photos (ok, prolly about 2-9 months back is not old enuff). Even now, when i look back at my own photos i am embarrassed that I actually look like that but then how can I blame others who feel how i feel now? But hey, I'm still human afterall and so are you and you're no more perfect than I am.

No matter how hard i deny it, I had a feeling that it didn't work out *partly* due to how they look at me *physically*. Somehow I feel they're not interested in seeing me anymore is because of how i look.

Tell you, i love mirrors and it won't break because i'm looking at it. :P I'll find others who like looking at me and take me for who i am, not what i am.

Ok I am about to fall asleep while writing this.... I shall continue and go back to my markings........ *shakes head*