end of Week 3

It's nearly the end of Week 3. How time flies hey... It's been an incredible 3 weeks journey in uni and hope I can get through this semester for now. Another 9 more weeks...

I realise within this 3 weeks, I've learnt to be more thoughful, in terms of self analysis and how it affects the people around me. Or rather, how my actions & behaviours will be used as role models to others. In these 3 weeks, I've learnt to be *more* open about what I think, w/o feeling I'm stepping on the other party's toes or anything. Because sometimes when i speak my mind, it may come across to the other party in a crude way or something. But just the other day, I've had a decent reasonably in-depth discussion with my mum about what I really think about a certain issue. It's been bugging me for ages and I've never had a chance to tell her how I really feeel without me getting frustrated and upset. The reason I get frustrated and upset sometimes is that although what she used to do with unconditional love and advice, her advice seems to be a "must do" instead of "should do" advice. So when I try to tell her my point of view, it seems she refuses to see from my angle and still pushes her voice on top of mine. Of course, in a natural world, any mother would do that. But in order for us, the children, to live independently in the future, we need to have a voice of our own, not our parents or any one elses. How we think is of course shaped by our environment in which we were brought up and grew up in, cultural factors, social, political and economical factors. We all need to have an inner voice. I need to have my own inner voice. Especially since I will be viewed as a role model to younger students in the very near future, I need to have my own stand on issues such as social justice, democratic rights and ethical and moral issues. Because ultimately, somehow down the track, I will be challenged by others about my stance on issues hence need not I only need to improve my metacognitive development, but also on my characteristics. I reckon this program has really helped me to be on my way to becoming a better shaped citizen.

It's funny how 3 years ago, taking an Education course never really occured to me... until last year.

Looking back, uni is really a great place to be.. I am loving this academic year so far, in terms of academic curriculum & extra curriculum. I'm also looking forward to working with my comm members ^.^

This Saturday, I will be having MySA committee meeting in city, then think meeting up with my AU frens and then having dinner with another group of frens from Flinders Uni. Woo wee...so busy... So sorry to those who seem to think I'm avoiding you because I'm not meeting up with you for lunches or etc, but I really got so much work commitments on my hand....

I'm taking 22.5 units this semester, excluding a *Design & Technology 2* 5-days intensive course on the 2nd week of Easter break~~ **sigh** thinking about all the work makes my head spin @.@

ps SiewWai: ***HUGS*** you don't have to appear strong & tough, because it is better to go through it with friends rather than alone. You are not alone in this path..many people will and are here for you. Just because you are a role model to many, doesn't mean you cannot lean on others when you are down. Friends are there for each other. This journey you are going through will take time to heal. Take care SW.. you seem to have lost weight when I saw u @ Rundle Mall the other day..