self exploration

I've been wondering... am I being ... naive, childish..etc? Because I've been made to feel that way and worse thing is, the impression I've got is that it's a freaking bad thing...For my age.. =.='' Now now, I'm not 30+ woman.. for now..lol... I'm only 22!!

Alrrites, I've been told, the impression I got that I'm still acting "kiddish" / naive is because I'm doing the following things:

- listening to music instead of looking up the news
- wearing jeans to uni instead of nice pants =.=''''''''
- in summer, wearing thongs (SLIPPERS) to uni instead of "proper" shoes... {what she meant was really, closed shoes...
- giving everyone the benefit of the doubt that they can be good, eg that not every single person on this universe is manipulative and cunning and out there to take advantage of you
- interacting with people ; {she thinks that the only person you can count on is yourself, no one else; so why bother befriending them? waste time only and friends come and go; so don't get too involved}

Alrights, I may not be the person whom everyone wants me to be, but certainly I could think that if i'm doing the above things, it really just shows that this is who I am and it's part of my personality that I think the way I think. I think it's just wrong for someone to SAY that I'm dumb or stupid, but in their perspective, they are seeing me letting people take advantage of me..when I'm bloody not.

sigh.. I wanna make my own life.. I dun wanna regret down the track or blame someone else for imposing me to do what they want me to do... I wanna make my own decision and at least in the future if I stuff up, i will learn from it myself and not blaming other ppl.

Sometimes I hate my life.